in bloom + in depth

Carlton, 2nd January 2011

I like this photo.
The flower is sharply in focus and each petal is distinct, yet the background looks dreamy - blurred and slightly out of focus, colours washed out with the glow of the late afternoon sun. The trio are deep in discussion, oblivious.

the courage of your own disatisfaction prompts...

Cloudy thoughts to doubt what you have

Fantastic deceptions to gnash at with emotion -

Forge ahead!

Time creeps forward, and opportunities slip by.

Wring hands and sigh deeply 

Relief that these thoughts are just so

And night brings peace to conversations with the loved.

- Stream of consciousness rabble and late night creative drivel

beyond the glass ceiling

 

 Melbourne Central station- Elizabeth Street, 28th December 2010

What do you see when you look up? 

A clear, glass ceiling reinforced with steel.

Light streams through and is reflected off windows from the tower above as it stretches out into the sky, beyond your reach.

Hypothetical to do list for 2011

Technical skills

Actually learn some other research techniques (molecular, histology, etc)
Perform proper analysis of observations
Become well versed in areas of current research (for starters read those 6 papers)
Work through sketch software & tutorials for designs 

Novel territories

Travel to Germany, Greece, Japan, USA, Brazil, NZ?
Learn new language skills: Chinese, German, Korean or Japanese
Invest in an electric bike or conversion kit
See a new town every week (either local or interstate)
Change in career direction (don't actually have a direction)
Return to study part-time (but what could help me become more employable?)

Refinement
Strengthen relationship with love, family, friends and work folk
Get back into swimming
Publish that damned paper
Find work that is challenging and interests me - don't let another year pass without testing self
Develop and draw something every day... doesn't matter what? 
Think, analyse and evaluate effectively

Don't expect much. Try anyway. Aim for more

As suggestions go these seem vague yes, but it's a start and some more specific goals need to incubate before being voiced.